August 14, 2004

The cloud, formless and yet it look so mesmerising. It glide thru the sky as the wind blows it. Left or right it doesnt matter. It looks so goaless as it takes up any form as it pleases. Sometime when it happy, it comes bubbly puffly and when it gloomy it takes up the color of DepressinG Grey.

these few day had been either a depressing day or it a wake up call for me... it time i awoke from my dream, i needa take seriously about stuff that happening in my life and stuff that happens around me. jus like my bike courses... sigh i cant even properly ride a bike and i need to be reminded so many times that i am riding like hell and that i am like not interested so many times...

my other issue... sigh it her... maybe i need to give my self more time... i always thought that i am a really strong person haha i am not... i like gonna give up anytime. she not my girlfriend but i keep thinking that shes mine... or maybe it time i grew up... i cant have what i had it the past it doesnt exist anymore n0r will it happen again in the near future. but what i dont understand is... how can she take it.. maybe she has a work life that keeps her occupies at all times.... but i keep having this nuggling feeling that she like her present life where she has a house to live in and job that she enjoys doing. a somebody who will treat her like a little women, who will care and take care of her when she needs it and then there this some other guy she can relie on when the somebody doesnt bothers about her....

i like thinking too much my fucken migraine is back this whole week....

LaWreNce needed you at 2:25:00 PM

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