February 14, 2004

back from camp again. so much i learn during this passing week.. hell lot...

let talk about my training first...

stair walking.. must be wondering what is it? well it a training to prep us for brunei... it climbing of stair from the ground floor to the top storey which is about 4 floors high. then u have to walk a certain to the next neigbouring block and we have to do that for like 12 times.. sigh it like hell training but i guess it does help.. at least i feel that my running has improve... and that i do feel that muscle is growing in my hamstring..oohh... when training this week was jam pack.. we had like running then next day we had stair climbing and then the next we had road march...

ARR: armour road relay.. when it another excuess to make us run again... it like on mon wed fri then tue thurs and sat... we run every DAY!!! sigh give us a break...

maturity i found out thsi week... i haven!!! well i realise i really cannot take care of myself... and that even though i keep saying that i will do it.. i really haven do it... i really dont understand why i must give myself hell in order for me to learn. i jsut wont learn thru the intelligent way...

i jus found out i am afriad to fall in love again, i dont even know why... i am afraid i cant take care of her.. i cant even take care of myself now... even if i can take care of myself next time.. will i learn how to take care of her? haha actually i am afraid i will be control by her if i fall in love again.. because i lost it once before...

who know.. the distance future seems foggy..haha.. i cant go uni i just found out.. can only go in during july meaning i have to work and guess what i am planning to go somewhere oversea for a month before i go uni or something.... New zealand and Aust on the list.. i am open to sugesstion.. i jus wan to go around and leanr live and enjoy i never done those stuff in my life before... anyway.. it still too early to say this..

vday i am at home writing this.. sigh.... lol....

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