January 09, 2004

i dunno how to express it maybe i did it the wrong way and it disturbing you. i been trying to fight myself not to call you and disturb you or sms... it really creating a migraine... i am sorry if i have in anyway make you upset, but your really important to me in my life sigh....

i wrote this in my phone yesterday
i am really confused now. i dunno what your going through but i can se it very tough on you. are you afraid that you have no palce to live in or do you just face money problem? i got dis-hearten when you ask me to give up. you say you feel scare. what have i done to make you scare. sigh i care alot for you still. i will try to rid you off my heart. i will try to leave you. i wont bother you anymore. you cried yourself to sleep everynight. it hurts me when i see that your hurt. dont cry. when you ask me not to cry i try. now i ask you not to cry too. i book out early today, so i though maybe i give you a surprise, i though of getting you the almond paste and the black seaseme paste i brough for you in the past. you do think that i forgot about the QOO you send to my house last time. it was so sweet. i dont want to leave you. but if you really do. just call me and ask me to FuCK OFF. i will do that. even as you leave me i already though of changing my life to make yours stable i want you as my wife, i want to marry you, i want to go through happiness and pain together with you. i am very serious. i want to do everything with you. even as you ask me to be just your friend i will do that. i will wait for you. i just want you in my life. i wan to call you dear, my wife, honey...
Been in love doesnt mean just going through the happy part it also means going through the sad part as well...

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