January 18, 2004

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well i didnt have the chance to write ME blog of the past week due to LoyAL commitment to ME country. spent about 6 days in tekong, last week of aspc course so more time had to be spent there for the last excercise. well i tag along one of the team and we did some recce and taught the trooper some of the proper skill in recce... had a little surprise when we were resting on the first day. we saw this huge WILD boar had no regards towards us and was just snuffling through the trash and the uneaten PUPPY(combat ration) that we had. nothing special at tekong except for my friends special encounter with the spiritual world.... it was kinda spooky if you experience it...

had a through though at tekong, just found what i need to do and how to move on, for her sigh i am really not sure what she going through but it seems liek she dishearten to say. i will move on from her or something it hard though, but i will try. sigh maybe i will give myself a last chance during new year or soemthing. well there still 3 little things i haven do for her yet, and i feel i have to accomplish it for her, well i promise her last time. she sms last night most of the stuff that she say i think she force herself to say, somewhere in btw the sms her true feelings leak out, maybe i am sensitive or soemthing but that how i feel, i have always told her i want to suffer with her, the purpose of love is not just fun, romantic. it about sharing everything that we go through together, whether it pain or joy, maybe it my idealistic thinking or what, but how i feel. i guess after this relationship i wont fall for anyone... haha.. guess the heart is strong again.... will lead back my single lifestyle... i will still head my new year resoultion to save and save! a new one is coming for chinese new year i just haven think of it yet..hahaha

damn happy new year is coming... i hope it will be a better year for me... RESOLUTION- clear of all debt, save up, go Uni, Start a BIZ!!!

ANYbody interested in starting a biz i have a IDEA FOR F&B BIZ!!! it wil work i think(WINK)

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